Thread:Omnia Lesvos/@comment-26164274-20171103154638/@comment-26164274-20171103155654

things:
 * stayed alive (overrated honestly.)
 * chocolate.
 * talked to lemonyace.
 * talked more to my guildmates. still awkward though.
 * got through more crying sessions. alone.
 * made emma smile.
 * tumblr.
 * coding inspiration found.
 * can feel again after half a day in numbness.
 * ok just now mom was being soOooO mofoing insistent on me not plugging in the lights. got irritated and had to leave the bedroom. like, for fuck'S SAKE MOM MY HANDS ARE NOT WET. I WILL NOT DIE. THE FUCK.
 * yes i know i should stop imagining and headcanoning and planning since i might as well leave this christmas for good and never log into line again (lemon will kill me @last one, i'm fucked lmao) and abandon everyone because it's not like anyone will actually fucking miss me for Eternity like they'll forget eventually. everyone does. i'm not important. and besides most ppl only pity me. so,,,, whatever. insert shrug emoji.
 * keep thinking of an au where ethan never died but rain still went through her string of being cheated on. dating anyone but each other post grad. ethan wanting to punch everyone's lights out but she's just like "no just stay here." getting so used to sleeping in the same bed and cuddling but Never Crossing the Line. 2am talks. having stupid kitchen based inside jokes. bri and jackson just shaking their heads at them. rain, after drew and paul, never goes past the first date. ethan has stopped drinking and sleeping around on occasion but grudgingly agrees to the dating scene at rain's insistence. he ditches all his dates. ice cream for breakfast, pancakes for lunch, froyo for dinner sometimes bc they're lazy. sharing earphones and the same playlists. compromising on the same type of coffee, tea, everything so they can just share if something spills. borrowing each other's wands and switching by accident because they work perfectly for both. either coming home from overtime at work to find the other asleep on the couch waiting for them. just so in love that they stopped caring if they were or not.
 * 2am update: here's to hoping i didn't totally fuck up and discourage some previous newbies from returning by deleting their characters and here's to hoping i did the whole thing right and here's to hoping i stop feeling awful about deleting characters. h/r dep really isn't for me.