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It's hard to breathe. I'm crying and I don't want to stop until I fall asleep. I don't want to be in my head. I'm tired. 15:52, June 3, 2017 (UTC)

Haha what kind of fucked up existence am I 18:03, June 3, 2017 (UTC)

I wonder how much time I have left 18:17, June 3, 2017 (UTC)

Im a fucking mess 18:57, June 3, 2017 (UTC)

with or without me you'll all be fine because that's how humans are you move on so maybe you'll cry for a little while but you'll get over it when i die 06:20, June 4, 2017 (UTC)

And just as I started to get better, I realize they have no need of me and I am all alone, because I've just been fooing myself all along. I want to die. 00:33, June 5, 2017 (UTC)

i want to be okay i keep trying to think yeah i'll be okay but i'm not and i just start crying again and i'm so tired of holding back tears 02:42, June 5, 2017 (UTC)

when will i grow up when will i get over myself when will i stop being so fucking unreasonable and running to the suicidal thoughts because they're the only thing stable and constant and real and what will never ever leave me 05:44, June 8, 2017 (UTC)

i'm too stupid to learn anything and i can't stick to a work ethic worth shit. i should stop fooling myself and delete all my language apps and resources. i'm too fucking stupid, okay? i'm nothing compared to everyone else and it sucks because it's never going to change. then i guess i've always been nothing i just liked to lie to myself. haha 14:30, June 8, 2017 (UTC)

i don't think anyone would ever find out that some of the times i tell jokes and seem happy and hyper are also the times when i'm behind the screen crying and shaking because i hate myself so much i wasted my life and i hate me so much i'm sorry i wasted your time and money mom and dad i'm sorry i'm sorry 06:26, June 9, 2017 (UTC)

so stupid, omnia. sorry will never cut it 06:28, June 9, 2017 (UTC)

i'm pathetic. 06:31, June 9, 2017 (UTC)

if the point of my existence was to remind me that i am worthless then you've made your point. i can't be good enough and i never will be. i can't do anything. i'm useless. 09:21, June 12, 2017 (UTC)

My right leg hurts from it but its ok because i deserve every bad thing coming my way. I hope i die 05:40, June 14, 2017 (UTC)

The difference between me and my characters is that they're just flawed, and i'm worthless. I'm a piece of shit and idk why i'm not dead yet I don't deserve to have feelings 02:10, June 20, 2017 (UTC)

every time languages are brought up i just start crying why am i so weak why do i keep trying to be good enough when i will never make the cut why why why why i just want it to stop i want to die ok 02:35, June 20, 2017 (UTC)

i am alone. i want it to end. 06:01, June 23, 2017 (UTC)

i'm so soft and weak. i wouldn't last a second on my own. day 958944295842 of me being useless and pathetic and empty and lost and better off dead because my existence wouldn't make a difference. 04:35, June 24, 2017 (UTC)

God, why? Why? Why let me live when there are loads more people deserving? Why let me exist? Do you even care? Are you even there? Are you even listening? I've never been very religious but why? I know you wouldn't care about me. So why even let me live? Am I just another filler solution for my parents? I'm so tired. I sound so fucking vulnerable typing this. 17:51, June 25, 2017 (UTC)

i know my existence is futile i know dreams don't come true i know i am just a useless pawn i know i am powerless and i'm tired of knowing i'm tired of existing like this i'm tired of being like this in a world like this 17:53, June 25, 2017 (UTC)

existential crisis at 2am how fucking original of me if i hate myself enough then it is my only defense 17:54, June 25, 2017 (UTC)

angry sad upset is comfortable is safe you can't be disappointed and hurt when you force yourself into your lowest point. i don't know how much longer i can breathe like this 17:55, June 25, 2017 (UTC)

i don't like talking about non-ship ideas because they're always brushed off and i end up feeling stupid about it. i know i'm not smart or clever or creative, okay? it just sucks when people completely look past it. i dunno why i even try. 17:46, June 30, 2017 (UTC)

why do i try. 17:49, June 30, 2017 (UTC)

I'm sorry. I know I'm not going to make it to 2018. I'm sorry. 19:24, June 30, 2017 (UTC)

haha it hurts so much 04:28, July 1, 2017 (UTC)

all darp does is make me feel like shit why did i even come back oh right because i'm soft but what do i do when the few people who care about me being there aren't there oh yeah i'm useless i'm not important why didn't i just fucking kill myself haha 18:29, July 8, 2017 (UTC)

i'd like to smile again without remembering my brain is making it all up 09:27, July 11, 2017 (UTC)

im sorry im an emotionally abusive and manipulative piece of shit 09:53, July 11, 2017 (UTC)

i don't get why i'm not used to it by now. apologies mean nothing so not even going to try. you won't miss me 19:20, July 11, 2017 (UTC)

i'm never going to get better. 06:32, July 13, 2017 (UTC)

i want to die 09:31, July 13, 2017 (UTC)

please make the pain stop 03:28, July 14, 2017 (UTC)

WHY CAN'T I BE GOOD ENOUGH 07:18, July 29, 2017 (UTC)

too bad i can't cry my uselessness away 17:28, July 29, 2017 (UTC)

please stop 10:05, July 31, 2017 (UTC)

i don't deserve to be happy anyway 13:16, August 12, 2017 (UTC)

just kill yourself omnia 13:17, August 12, 2017 (UTC)

how much longer can i go on like this 16:20, August 15, 2017 (UTC)

don't expect me to rp with any of you ever again lmao i'm done making excuses for people who don't give a fuck

i want to die

i wish i never woke up 03:40, August 22, 2017 (UTC)

what does it feel to be wanted not because they feel obligated to want you by their side 21:04, August 22, 2017 (UTC)

i'm not enough 20:06, August 26, 2017 (UTC)

please please please i can't do it anymore 14:32, August 27, 2017 (UTC)

i've found my newest low point. when i'm nothing more than a temp, when everything hurts too much, when there's nothing i can do but keep crying myself to sleep again, when it's 2012 all over again, when i'm only living because i can't die

19:23, August 30, 2017 (UTC)

hi i deserve to die scum like me don't deserve to live 17:53, September 5, 2017 (UTC)

i dont deserve to be happy stop acting so entitled 17:53, September 5, 2017 (UTC)

ive said it before ill say it again i deserve everything bad that's coming i deserve it i hate myself i hate myself kill me 17:54, September 5, 2017 (UTC)

theres only one thing i can apologize for: i'm sorry it has to be this way because you're like that. i can't baby you anymore chase. i'm tired. i'm fucking tired. and you run away because i'm the mean, aggressive, cruel one who's kicking the poor, seeking forgiveness innocent. stop apologizing when you don't even fucking change, when all you do is tear up your friends' friendships because you're jealous and want them all to yourself, when you play mind games, when you tell us not to befriend certain users just because you don't like them. here's what. i'm doing this because 'fuck you you emotionally abusive manipulative jerk fuck you for hurting people i cared about fuck you for trash talking just because you're annoyed you didn't get your way fuck you for not having any accountability fuck you for ruining our squad friendship fuck you for making me sad and empty because i miss the good parts when you WEREN'T toxic fuck you for having enough good in you for me to care fuck you for making me do this. fuck. you.' 16:39, September 6, 2017 (UTC)

i dont wanna be okay i wanna be happy 04:24, September 18, 2017 (UTC)

'it's easier to hate myself than do something about why 03:16, September 22, 2017 (UTC)

i always felt like the "choose me or lose me" quote was extreme until now. no, i won't be your second choice anymore. not because i'm selfish and jealous (yeah maybe i am those things too), not because i'm trying to manipulate you, not because i'm scared of rejection. but because this is for me, because it's about time i find something that makes me happy and let go of what's holding me back, because by all things logical, you don't deserve my ideas or my presence or what i bring to the table. goodbye. 08:51, September 28, 2017 (UTC)

this world isn't worth living for anymore 04:18, October 1, 2017 (UTC)

dysphoria you win. happy now? i'm going to live whatever years i have left locked up in a dark room in a small house and never speaking to anyone and never chasing ambitions and dreams and probably donating parts of my body to hospitals. because that's the only way i'm not a waste of space. that's the only way i can help. i'm fucking useless and i want it to end. 10:08, October 3, 2017 (UTC)

dysphoria logic: if i can't be tall, then i'd like to die

me logic: well cool i wanted to die before you came along anyway thanks for giving me another reason 10:12, October 3, 2017 (UTC)

i have shitty ideas. not a surprise, considering it's me. 07:46, October 4, 2017 (UTC)

I have done absolutely nothing today fuck my life 08:58, October 5, 2017 (UTC)

the more i talk the more it shows that i'm a shitty person so i should just keep ranting here and not tell the others because yeah thanks i get it i have the same issues as the other person and i'm going to end up even more toxic than i already am. fuck it why am i crying 01:32, October 13, 2017 (UTC)

why am i alive. I GET IT OK IM USELESS AND DEPRESSING AND PATHETIC I DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN MY LIFE I HATE MYSELF WHY AM I ALIVE WHY DON'T YOU GIVE IT TO SOMEONE WHO WOULD MATTER AND MAKE A DIFFERENCE 01:37, October 13, 2017 (UTC)

part two the squad makes me feel shittier than i already am and i honestly deserve it. 01:40, October 13, 2017 (UTC)

what. is. wrong. with. me. 02:59, October 13, 2017 (UTC)

i might have psychosis and i dont know what to do w anything i want to cry and not do anything im so tired and i dont want to deal with anything and i feel so trapped i wanna go away 03:28, October 13, 2017 (UTC)

please tell me wher i fucked up because it seems like everything is my fault andi h ate myself for it. i just want to forgive myself but it's so hard. 13:17, October 16, 2017 (UTC)

no. i'm not okay. and it hurts. 11:14, October 17, 2017 (UTC)

i'm awful and overbearing and a whiny spoiled brat who's too immature to prioritize. 16:40, October 17, 2017 (UTC)

i deserve all the pain just shut up me you don't know jack 16:42, October 17, 2017 (UTC)

hi. it's 12:50am on oct 18 2017. it won't make a difference but i'm giving up on myself. 16:51, October 17, 2017 (UTC)

i wish i was actually worth something. 14:20, October 29, 2017 (UTC)

'if i was happy when i spoke to you i probably really wasn't.' now magnified by x10 because everyone is sick of the not so breaking news i'm sick and upset and i feel dead, numb 08:12, November 3, 2017 (UTC)

no i feel awful and gross and i hate myself and it's not anything chocolate can fix. why can't i be a decent human being? why can't i do any goddamn fucking thing right? why can't i be good enough for myself? why am i an attention seeking manipulative piece of fucking shit who should just kill herself and have it over with? why? 16:17, November 5, 2017 (UTC)

even this whole fucking template and my old sandboxes were fucking cries for attention im pathetic im pathetic nobody has any idea how pathetic i am because all i really have is these sandboxes and my characters and my thoughts because i'm never going to achieve anything or be anything or get anywhere and i know i'm going to be bullied once i go to school and i know i'll have crappy grades even if i try and i hate myself because i am a waste of space oxygen time and everything i am a waste 16:30, November 5, 2017 (UTC)

i'm going to die of stress haha 16:36, November 11, 2017 (UTC)

im sorry bc all i am is a stinking waste of space. im sorry bc i wish i were half as good as anyone believed and i wish i didnt exist bec everyone in my life deserves better i'm sorry i hate myself

i wish i weren't so stupid. 10:02, November 21, 2017 (UTC)

no i'm not okay i feel awful and idk how to ever stop it for good because it keeps coming back no matter what i do i'm sorry. i'm sorry. 09:30, November 23, 2017 (UTC)

still worthless as ever 07:30, November 24, 2017 (UTC)

what made me think that anything would change about the way i feel about myself haha 18:59, November 25, 2017 (UTC)

no one wants to see or hear you talk okay? you get annoying after some time. that's why you don't talk about yourself at all if possible, because deep down you know you're just a boring stupid little girl whose ideas are trash once you pick them apart. i'm worth nothing now and i'm worth nothing later. 19:04, November 25, 2017 (UTC)

why do you keep thinking something's gonna change? nothing is changing and never will. you're useless, you're pathetic, you're mediocre. you'll never amount to anything. not now not ever not in this life nor the next. keep crying. that's the only thing you know how to do, omnia. you're a waste of space and you don't deserve any of the good things or people in your life you ungrateful piece of shit. 17:53, November 26, 2017 (UTC)

i don't wanna go through this alone again. please. 18:21, November 28, 2017 (UTC)

INCOHERENT FUCKING SCREAMING BECAUSE I AM HELPLESS AND WORTHLESS AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO START OVER 18:28, November 28, 2017 (UTC)

i am so tired. 16:33, December 3, 2017 (UTC)

i cant even be good enough for myself how could i ever b good enough for peopl who actually matter 16:32, December 9, 2017 (UTC)

im sorry i wish i could be the person you all think and believe i am but im not im just nothing. im nothing and i will nevervamount to anthing anf im sorry if i got your hopes up bc yeah i know i wwas a waste i will always be a waste 16:37, December 9, 2017 (UTC)

Why didn't i just kill myself im fucking worthless i cant do anything right i dont even have darp to blame i suck im horrible why didnt i just kill myself why why why 17:00, January 18, 2018 (UTC)

There is nothing i can do that someone else can never forgetting the comic where its not that the world would be a better place without me its that it wouldnt matter and thats worse i dont matter o havennever mattered i should hsve just died ok i should justbbe dead because im worthless as fuck i cant do anything right i cant be anything why cant thw world just kill me hahahaha 17:03, January 18, 2018 (UTC)

you're right. i'm not chase. i'm worse than chase. i'm a toxic wasteland who's saying goodbye.

10:35, April 3, 2018 (UTC)