Thread:Omnia Lesvos/@comment-26164274-20171010082615/@comment-26164274-20171010092451

sometimes I say and do things that aren't me just to prove something to myself or others. that's where ruiko comes from, i guess? to her, it's every moment. she hates the idea that maybe she'd given up on herself too early, and she'll go on to unnecessary lengths to prove that she can't be saved. she fucks with people's feelings, pokes just enough times to make them angry, breaks laws, laughs in pain, all for her own purpose. she isn't a "twisted morality" character - she lost sight of it completely. her point of existence is to tell everyone she was right, she was right. you can't save everyone. some people don't want to be saved. that's what makes them so untouchable.

it never occurred to me that people would find ruiko "badass" or even refer to her as that. it was kind of amusing to me - because that's exactly how some people ic would think of her as. she isn't badass to me. she's insanely reckless with the ability to force fortune and luck to their knees. she's lost the one thing everyone else has - hope. hopeless. and that's one of the loneliest things to be in any world.