Thread:Omnia Lesvos/@comment-26090648-20171027142309/@comment-26164274-20171027164813

Jaye,

You've always been so fucking supportive like how teach me of me and all your other friends for as long as I've known. I know I like ~ keeping everything inside and making myself a raging mess of anxiety and need for reassurance ~ and it leads to shit fallouts that could've been resolved better, more peacefully, or just with less emotional turbulence that they were. Even with all the time I spend writing, contemplating, and thinking about feelings feelings feelings feeeeeelings, it's like someone unchecked the box for "personal". Sometimes I break that with random bursts of appreciation, but those are so rare that I end up feeling like a high maintenance but low income job to... well, everyone I've ever formed attachments with. (LOOK. I DID IT AGAIN, I'M COMPLETELY WONKING OUT THE TOPIC.) TLDR; I'm bad w/ words and I don't know how to say I've always noticed, appreciated, and never forgotten that about you.

I've thought about leaving (hell, I did, you dragged my wimpy ass back here and for that I lowkey thank you lmao) for the nth time and I figured that I'll probably be around until at least next year, when p much all of the kpop squad will have headed off to college or need to start focusing on what college they need to attend. I can't say I won't be less active since I've decided to try and tone down how much time I spend on Wikia / basically pulling an Emma here. There are loads of new things I wanna focus on, and I need to make time for them or I'll regret it for the rest of my weirdass life. I want to learn a few languages, bake, code really wicked stuff, disarm a bomb, basic normal stuff like that. (shhhhhh. key word: weirdass.)

Hoping against hope you can get net access back at home so this really won't be the last time we talk in a godawfully long time. I think I'll go a little bit more insane. DARP always kind of dies when you poof.

Love you too, dork queen. <3

p.s. m888888 riperoni enlighten me on the extra voting forums. do you mean the separate for later powersets bc those might v well still need their own forums bc the ones i mostly left out (occlu, legilim specifically) will probably need like 4 paragraphs of explanation and definition and not just a powerset. [miiiiind magic yoooo] i think i could get giants done if i get off my ass.